:: piTy ::

   im saDness. .
thinking abt my life ..
Bad m0ments when my sis through her teenager tym..
make my life was control..
s0 hard 2 say,n im crying when i pray..
n share abt dat wif God,,,,
notin dat can i d0,juz i wish i'll be a patient pers0n..
Never Had a Dream Come True. .

t0o Much. .

  I sit 0n my chair in my r0om. .i was thinking," i still hv a long journey in my life.."
~' Beep '. .i look on my screen phone, " 1 Message Receive ". .i 0pen n read de msge. 0owh fr0m him. .i put back my ph0ne on my table, n listen a love s0ng playing. .
   My tears w0nt st0p. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 

" мʏ ρяιʌαтɛ ˩ιғɛ "

  n0 0ne kn0w waT im g0ing thr0ugh..Wat i was thinking abt s0me1 else..They 0nly know n see wat wil c0uld hppen 2 me real,n say " 0wwhh "..

:: in mY dReam ::

Hope my Dream wiL b c0me trUe. .
AmiNnn. .

:: resuLt stPm aLrdy 0ut ::

  Huhh..My rsuLt stpm??erm..n0t baD,actLy i feeL s0 gud n thnX 2 Allah..NsyLh,if ada rZki myB smbg msUk U..Mdh2n dpt,tGh bRusaHa ney skg..Even p0inter ak juZ 2.33,but pLuang ada dmna2..God bLess me..:-)

My ResuLt :

Pengajian Am = B-
Bahasa Melayu = B
Pengajian Perniagaan = C+
Sejarah = D+

. .Lm sdh XupdatE. .^^,

                       UiissHh..Lm nya xupdatE bLog ak ney. .heHe. .

FrOm Him..

  Since 1st day i meet him,he gv me diz card..Until n0w i stil keep it...

i maY be al0ne,but im nver l0nely..

  S0me days,itz OK,0ther days,itz unbearable.I need 2 learn 2 b OK being alone n being wif myself..I’m trying 2 work 0n being ok wif diz!

Being alone has its ups and downs..
I love it when:
I can sleep as l8 as i want,d0 absolutely nothing,leave dishes in de sink,eat anything food 4 
breakfast,listen 2 relaxation music without getting a strange look,talk silly 2 my cats,sit in front of my laptop all day,cry when i feel like it,laugh out loud at a stupid thought….
I hate it when:
I need some1 2 hug…i want 2 c a really gud m0vie,go 2 anywhere 0nly wif myself,i hear a strange s0und in de n8 n n0 0ne was pr0tect me,i did'nt  hv  s0me1 2 talk abt smthg n etc…
But it does seem 2 make u better able 2 look at situations more realistically.U are responsible  4 ur own choices n actions n u can’t blame any1 but urself!
U also realize dat u CAN take care of urself n u learn 2 depend on U!

I hv 2 keep telling myself dat im ok,dat i can take diz,coz i know i can..Being alone is gud.. BUT??

 i pr0bably shouldn't be telling de w0rld all 0f diz...but writing is helps!

Find N Hold Me!

Im hurt all de tme,
I dunt want 2 cry 4 de way i feel inside,
I juz want some1 2 hold me...
Im alone in de dark,plez try 2 find me..
If no one cares,i dunt c a p0int 2 go 0n,
any1 find me!Any1 care!
Im sorry,i juz dunt want 2 b alone anymore..
I feel unheard n unseen..Depressed n weak..
No one cares n yet im 0wez de s0rry 1.
Some1 find me!Im scared...
Plez hold me until it all ends..
Juz hold me datz all i want..
I dunt want 2 b al0ne in de dark..
Juz hold me as i start to disappear fr0m de light,wen i start 2 cry,wen i wont be alone inside,wen i dunt d0 something wr0ng,
Juz hold me s0 tight.....<3

De m0ment_Punk Rock Girl h0stel_

eL. .Nany. .Rozie. .
We make diz vide0 at h0stel 0n 22nd n0v 2010..
i'll nver 4get diz moment,s0 sweet!!i really miz it!!
"SKUL" itz fnish..n it wil nver back!!

RosSa _ ku Menunggu...

I felt like i was having a heart attack!

    Part 0f me is s0 tired 0f fighthing wif him..N I feel as though i can't fight anym0re!!im hurting s0 bad i havent really been able 2 eat 0r sleep 0r anything i've tried talking to him abt diz but de same thgs stil hppen!

im >> br0ken heart gurL..

   I put my heart int0 all dat i wanted wif u n u showed me tyme n tyme agn dat im n0t w0rth de sacrifice..U won't really miz me until im ....GONE!!! Sometymes i wish i was a little kid agn..Until diz moment,i nver undrstood h0w hard it was 2 lose smthg u bcoz my hrt is taken by u,br0ken by u,n n0w it in a pieces all bcoz 0f u!!

   Wat do u do wen d 0ne wh0 br0ke ur heart is d 0nly 0ne wh0 can fix it????

Itz better 2 b aLone,den living wif a broken heart. .
 i hatE myse|f 4 being a diSsapPointEd!!


im Hurting!

 I honestly dunt know y im still here…I dunt know watz keeping me here…y hv i not ended it yet?…Im so sick of feeling diz way…I want 2 cry,i want 2 scream,i want 2 stop de pain,i want 2 cut myself until de physical pain drowns out d emotional.I want it over! I want diz pain 2 end!!

 I worry so much wif wat im going through..I want 2 b more open wif how im feeling…but smething inside me is keeping me from doing so.I juz want 2 hug some1 n cry until i feel btter…I cant do either…I haven’t had a gud cry in a long tyme…I dunt think i even rmmber how.I juz want de pain 2 go away…people keep telling me im a strong person but i dunt c it. If they REALLY knew me they would know dat isn’t true.Im tired of faking a smile,a laugh, dat evrything is ok wen im being held 2gether by cheap tape dat is barely doing de job.Im afraid 2 trust any1,i dunt trust myself n itz very hard 4 me 2 trust others…

 Each year my sadness grows even more n i bcome even more broken inside…i juz want it over!!!…I hv nthing keeping me here…I know dat i stil hv 2 deal wif evrything else dat pains me,i wish i wasn’t alive…I want de pain 2 stop!!!….I want 2 cry….I want it all over!!!…but…I never get my way…L

im stil alone..

I need a boy...a true guy,1 who looks real tough...But won’t mke me cry.I need dat  kind guy who Understnds...N even wen He’s wif his friends he stil says..."baby,hold my hand..’’

I look around n all i c is couples... skinny blonde wif some tall dark muscular guy..holding her tight... stealing kisses wen they think no 1 is watching...wen is it my turn? God, how i wish i could be her...God, how i would gv my evrything 2 b her..juz 4  1day...juz  4 1hour...1second..juz  4  1kiss... juz  2  b held..juz 2 know dat some1 is there...2  know dat some1  cares... 2 know dat some1  could care abt me as much as they do abt all de skinny blondes..

Wat i need 2 find, is some1  2 hold me tight...
Wat i mean is i want 2 be somebody's somebody...
Some1's some1...some sweetheart’s sweetheart …
I wanna b dat 1…
Some1  faithful  2 some1  faithful... some1  kind 2 some1  kind 2 me
Somebody  2  somebody who loves me..

I need a man dat'll treat me gud....not like these lil boys dat claim they could..
im sick of these little boys
n  de games dat they play
either  u want me or u dunt
bounce or stay

Single..sexy..free to flirt...
wanna b  in love...dunt wanna get hurt
I love de whole flirting around,being wif  ur gurls,an independent woman
but I wouldn’t mind holding hands.Going on dates.
Being his girl..

Yah i know it might seem like i need love
But in diz world
Every1 who falls in love
Falls apart..

Stil getting hurt over n over agn.No more stressing n obsessin.From now on im having fun n refusing 2  gv my heart 2 any1.Yeah im alone,but i dunt need epy couples walking down de hall togther 2  remind me..

im not a girl dat thinks a guy is d answer
im juz tired of being alone..
Juz once i wanna b de gurl datz hard 2 walk away from..
im tired of not being enough..not being some1’s once in a lifetime...
all i wnt is a guy 2 hold me,kiz me,n look at me n say 'I love u' n actually mean it…
i feel like no 1 wants me or dat im not
even there wen it comes 2 me liking some1
they juz dunt seem 2 care
i juz want dat 1prson dat can make me smile wen im crying
dat wil laugh at my jokes even wen they’re not funny
make me feel like im d only person in my world
n if some1 says something abt me he’ll stick up 4 me
i juz want dat 1person dat i can love
n he’ll love me wif all his heart

im so sick of being single...i need a guy
2 hold me tight wen i start 2 cry
i need a guy datz nice n so damn fine 
So i can tell my gurlfriends... "Yup,he's mine!"

Sometymes i wnt some1  2  juz hold me wen i need it.Not a hug,but juz hold me,u know? I need some1  2 actually love me 4 once in my life..
I dunt wanna b everything 2  every1...
But I'd like 2 b something 2 some1...
d only n only thing i want right now
is 2 find a guy who likes me 4 me
a guy who isn’t afraid 2 act like himself around me
n  4  me 2 be able 2 act like myself around him
some1 2  cuddle wif  n mke me feel wanted
some1  2  love..n some1  2  love me..

I need a boy who would let me cry on his shoulder
hold me until itz all over
pick my head up n kiz me
n say “I Love You No Matter What
And Everything Will Be Ok”

Im convincing myself, YES i’ll find some1  new,i won’t b alone,n i won’t b wif  u.U’re waiting 4 me 2 crawl back 2 ur side,but no…NOT DIZ TYME!. Im keeping my pride..So gd bye 4eva,i’ll be on my way, itz going 2 take tyme, but i’ll  b Ok...Daa